One day I might die, but having been with you, having loved you, will always remain with me. I am terrified that you’ll leave me, but I know that this feeling, this deep love will stay, forever.

This stupid UTI I have… I managed to do the thing I was afraid you’ll do. I can’t even fathom how incredibly stupid I am, how terribly dumb I got. It’s absolutely insane. I wanna just hurt myself for being so fucking dumb, having done this to myself when you are coming. It’s insane and crazy and stupid and I wish I wasn’t so dumb. I regret this sooooo much. I feel like a complete moron.